stuck with boring teachers... T.T

ARGH!!..
first few weeks of school...
got to know my teachers....
and DAMN!..
MOST OF THEM ARE BORING MAN...
as most people know already... i slept quite often during class when i was in form 2... this situation makes me... makes me just want to sleep even more!!... i promised myself i would pay attention and do better this year... but... haih... this is gonna be hard... /sob... T.T
ARGH!!... just thinking of it makes me fidget in my seat...
ESPECIALLY THAT OLD LADY THAT TEACHES ME CHINESE!!!
man... she took 3 classes to finish a chapter!!.. and it's not like she spent much time explaining... SHE WAS LITERRALLY TALKING CRAP!!! CRAP!!!... DOH~!
I AM STUCK WITH THESE TEACHERS FOR THE REST OF THIS YEAR AH!!!... sob sob.. T.T help me~~....
haih...
and... although i don't think i am really qualified to say this...
but i am saying it anyway...
a lot of my friends.. well... are still really very childish in their mindset...
this year all science subjects are in English... because of the change the government made...
so... during bio class... many could not understand... THEY WANTED THE TEACHER TO EXPLAIN IN ENGLISH!... i mean... c'mon lah... u want the teacher to go over everything because you all don't understand??... STUDYING IS YOUR responsibility man... you are the one who is supposed to read your textbook before going to class and look for the words you don't understand in the dictionary!!...
i know i don't do this (YET XP)... but... at least i understand... or at least... i don't ask the teacher to explaing it JUST FOR ME... and make the whole class listen along...
C'MON GUYS (AND g!rl$)!! You're form 4 already!! Senior 1 already!!.. GROW UP!!...
haih... really... this is.. selfishness.... quite unreasonable...

another group of people i would like to talk about is those who are REALLY PAMPERED AND SPOILT!! SPOILT BRATS!!! (i know i myself am one to some extent.. but not as bad as the people i am going to talk about... i hope so... :P)
these people... the way they speak.. well.. IMMATURE!... (i don't want to sound like i am saying that i myself am very mature... but this people really are immature....)
they speak with utterly no sense! and they grumble and say this and that at every little thing... can't take even a little pain or agony...
haih...

HAIH... all sorts of people on the face of this earth... must learn to make peace with these people... learn to be with these people... (if not how are we going to spread the gospel?... XP sounding spiritual now... :P)

o.. no offence... i don't mean to critisize these people... just... pointing their weaknesses out FOR THEIR GOOD... (XP)
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haih...
been wondering lately...
can a person be mature in his thinking but immature in his speech??...
and how to do u mature?...
most people just say READ MORE!... KNOW MORE!!... but is that true?... is it really just THAT SIMPLE?..

i myself... want to be more mature... for i think i have been really childish... and talk childishly very often... talk without thinking... and BLAH out of emotion... haih...


~END~

school starts.. start wearing long WHITE pants...

well...
school has started...
and yea... i am a senior! :P in form 4 currently... and in our school... that's when we start wearing long WHITE pants... hehe... finally graduated from wearing short pants... and well... nothing special actually... :P just a little difference outwardly... nothing else of me has changed much... (i think ;P)...
it feels rather hot wearing those long pants... and they are a little hard to maintain... must always watch out not to get them dirty... especially the bottom... :
anyway...
was busy calculating the cost of my books...
i am gonna buy some second hand books from a 先修廉 (same as Upper Form 6 in normal schools)...
i went looking around for 2nd hand books rather late... many of the people i know have sold their books... haih...
and.. i didn't know some of my form 4 books will and can be used until Upper 6... that is.. if u do not leave school after SPM... which quite a lot of people do...

haih...
a new year...
a new class...
many new faces (not that i haven't seen them before... just that i never knew them or talked to them... :P)...
hope i will be able to do well academically and socially...
haih...
16 years...
already 16 years in this world...
still a little blur on my future... :
blurr...
heck!.. I AM BLUR!... ;P
don't even know what and why i am writing this.. XP

ARGH...
i don't know why...
but my parents... are so... so... STRICT this year...
don't know why...
keep telling me this and that about my studies...
blah blah blah...
for heaven's sake... MY RESULTS IMPROVE LAH!!...
i know my PMR wasn't too good... neither my UEC... but... i think i did pretty well for my UEC loh... i know a lot more people had 7 and 8 A's... but... I AM NOT THEM!!... my total average for the term improved lo... i DID make an effort... yes.. i know it MAY have not been my best... but... must the pester me like this??.. my dad doesn't even want to let me use the computer anymore!!... what the heck...
the didn't even COMPLIMENT when they saw that my results were better... they only knew to say... "DO BETTER", "I KNOW YOU CAN DO BETTER ONE..."...
the moment they knew my friend's results, they just say "SEE! HOW COME HE CAN, YOU CAN'T?"... I AM NOT HIM!!... ARGH!... but ofcourse... i have to control myself... if not... haih... worse consequences...
and now... they don't even let me watch TV together with them after dinner... "GO DO SOME REVISION"... HECK!.. i don't even have my textbooks yet lah!!... sheesh!...
ARGH!!!... just thinking of this makes me boil inside...

SEE!!... AND NOW MY MOM IS PESTERING ME TO SHUT THE COMPUTER DOWN!!... WHAT THE HECK!!... i used the computer so much more last year and had better results leh....
ARGH!!!!!!.....

2006...

filled with mixed feelings...

new year... more expected of me... expected to be more mature... more responsiblities... more work... less play... one thing i don't know if i will have more or less though... is... freedom... More? less?... yet to know... relative?... mayb... XP

haih...

a new year...
what's the big deal?...
a new year...
so??..
things are (nearly) the same...
go to school.. come back... on the comp... homework... study..
then the once-in-a-very-common-while exams...
haih...

but... ofcourse... quite happy to go back to school..
cause i will get to meet all my friends again...
at the price of study and homework... haizz...

2005... quite a year to remember...
it sure was a memorable year...
haih...
time sure flies...
i noe i SHOULD not waste my time...
but well.. no determination... no will power... T.T (XP) haih...
have to MATURE!... have to change!... (lol)
hope i m not juz saying all these for fun... =.=
haih....

dunno wat i m talkin about?... me 2... really having very mixed feelings...

anyway...
been a bit into old disney cartoon soundtracks...
i just noticed they were not too bad...
for example...

I Can Go The Distance - Hercules
Can You Feel The Love Tonight - Lion King
The Bells of Notre Dame - Hunchback of Notre Dame
and a lot more...

and ofcourse there are those humourous and funny ones...

A Girl Worth Fighting For - Mulan
Hakuna Matata - Lion King
Under the Sea - The Little Mermaid
and lots lots more...

ah~~...
all these songs bring so much sweet memories back...
(sound like a old autie talking.. XP)
but really... these songs... really... music to my ears... :P

o well... time to continue looking and downloading Disney soundtracks!... ;D